1 Corinthians 11:1 Follow my example as I follow the example of Christ.
While sitting in FCA tonight I realized that I really do naturally take on a dominant role in helping in a group setting. I found myself accepting the challenge of getting into a leadership role. This is an intimidating task. More eyes will be on me. More obstacles will be in my way of communicating myself. I think it will push me to reconsider how I spend my time and how I handle temptation. I am hungry for Jesus. I don’t want to be neutral anymore in my faith. I hope to speak more confidently in my faith. Be BOLD. Also, while remembering that its not for me. It’s all for God. I have had this feeling for a while about how I can grow in my faith whether it be baptism or sharing the word. I will keep praying for how to best spread the word of the Lord and whether that be through me directly or indirectly to make others understand the significance of the word. I am here for it! 200%!! With stepping into something new, there are apprehensions. I am nervous about whether this was the right move. It feels right but I DON’T want my ego or pride to get the best of me. I have to constantly remind myself of my redeeming qualities that allow me to be a leader. I want to glorify God PERIOD. I, also, noticed how I have surrounded myself with people who are in these leadership positions. When we broke off into small groups, I realized my friends would be off in other groups too. So I, myself, had to branch off. For the sake of the group and going through the questions as a group, I facilitated the discussion. It felt natural. Waiting in the silence, awkwardness. It seemed like the right thing to do to share my experience in my journey and relate to those who have gone through the same thing. I know I probably should have prayed about it more and thought it over before jumping head first into it. But, I think if I did that I would have talked my way out of it. Missing the opportunity to take on a new challenge. To meet new people and connect to more people. My faith is not meant to be silent. I don’t want to be selfish and think my story HAS to be heard. But, I believe that if I don’t share how I came to who I am today than the Lord’s grace is lost to society. My fears should not cripple the power of the gospel. Now I am faced with how should I approach this task? Get into the Word.